my father was man.....for all i kno just yelling and screaming is all i heard from the cell phone. "he doesnt try. He is a failer." i feel so bad, for my family nto for myslef. I am a fuck up and i kno it. I mess everythign up, i almost with i wasnt born. I think about running away starting a new life but i kno ahead all that leads to sadness and pain. i have to relsove this if i only knew how. i dont want to become a failer btu that all i hear tonite. my sister helps me as much as she can btu when i dotn improve it makes me feel so sad. i hope i can change i will really try, its all in my mind.... i think i can to it with the support from family and friends if it was only there.........